I'm so in love with you but when you get irritated for the smallest reasons it makes me feel so sad, like blinds covering a window full of sunshine.

Not sunshine but... seanshine.

It is a bright, sunny day, yet closing the blinds only darkens the mood. Darkens. Don't you know how that makes everything seem? Gloomy and depressing. And it makes me feel worried. Worried what might happen. And lost. Lost. And alone. Where the outside is enjoying the shine, and I am covered by artificial darkness. Isolated.

And because of that I lose motivation. It matters, even if you only are with me for a few seconds.