About a week until I'm done with everything and settle things out. Finals coming up. 

And also currently in a state of ambivalence and vacillation from college choices. I've never felt this stressed out in my life. 

reality is full of tradeoffs 

but all we can do is to make decisions and don't look back. 

such is the way we must go by. 

where am i now? in the library, studying for a final. it is 2:46 am yet there are still a number of students studying as well. now that's motivation you know if you were all by yourself with your study materials in a environment devoid of any sound wouldn't you feel isolated it's just not natural for me yknow i don't know about everyone else but thats just how i feel and it kinda sucks cuz then you can't concentrate and you'd start to feel depressed and when you feel depressed you know that things are repeating itself over and over in your life cuz thats what pina bausch evoked in one of her choreographed pieces ahh it goes on and on. where the hell am i going with this? ihave no idea tho.