I really loved her. I couldn't sleep, I recorded the song we were going to rehearse, i walked, i got goosebumps, i was nearly about to throw up. reality didnt seem the same anymore.

reality really didnt seem the same.

no matter where i went

where i walked

what i said

its just so different

like i just woke up from a coma.

like i was starting a new phase. from point blank.

like a very long dream

i guess this really is how being heartbroken really feels like

the memories just flash back out of nowhere, and they were really great ones.

forget it? how could i so easily. i can't. they stay. theyre a part of my life. and please don't forget them either. those were so magical and beautiful. each and every minute i spent with you. thank you so much. for all youve done

she was the girl i truly loved.

and even if she didnt mean to say what she said, its still shocks me that it came from the girl i truly loved. those words at the time crushed me.


that moment standing there with her, i couldnt hear anything at one point and i was blank

blank. everything.



"i just want something else"




once you break a plate it can never really go back the way it was before. even if you put the pieces together its bound to shatter again.

thats why its sad

for the entire 9 months i wanted to do whatever i could to her to make her happy. i wanted to improve, give her what she wanted, take her to places shes never been to in her life. i never wanted to give up so soon. because i loved her. but i guess i wasnt enough.

she got tired of it, the curtains dropped.